oh darn it. i miss the days.
I am really amazed with the fact that i am now a fifteen years old. As far as i remember, i used to be so stubborn; maldita; and playful, but now i'm up to changes, and i have accept the fact that nothing is perfect and permanent; i am still maldita though, but i know when to become one and; sad to say, i'm now so very lazy.
I remember the times when i always put myself first and thinks that no one should be treated better than me. I remember the scenarios when i have made mistakes and i would just exclaim"bahala na sina mommy/ papa/ ate dyan." but now, its more of having things with, together, and for myself.
Life is really becoming more complicated as i age, but i realize that my perspective is quite the opposite, i am now simpler. When i have known and received God in my life, there is now only one thing i am pursuing for in general: to be rightful in His eyes. Before, i use to do stuffs para magkapera, para yumaman, para sumikat, at para maging ganito ganyan, but now, i only have one destinations but a lot of pathways to choose from. Honestly, its more efficient. If you think that because of this point of view, im getting a bit lazier, no, it even makes me want to do and achieve more for God and of course my family.
I have heard some of my friends saying that they really hope that they can go back to time wherein they were only children because life is getting harder and harder daw, heartaches and problems are really engulfing them. I wonder why they aren't like me. I love the scent of maturity, even if it doesn't have one.